My cousin's (Wafa) birthday is coming. she's turning 8. a friend of her is going to turn 9, so they decided to celebrate their birthday together. they organized a party (with a help from yours truly). they also make family meetings about it to inform what they have decide. they decided to have a water fight party. without them realizing it, they are learning how to organized an event and even lead a meeting. and they are doing a very good job. they make me in charge of the pinata. at first I was going to make a flower, but it turns out it's too complicated to make the petals. so I just left two of them and turn it into mouse ears instead. the girls (that's Wafa and her friend Saina) agreed that they wanted to make Angelina Ballerina. to decorate it we're using streamers that my mother bought. but she bought blue and pink streamers, and Angelina is suppose to be white. so we make a pink Angelina Ballerina wearing a blue ribbon. we're almost finish, but we still need to put the goodies inside.
in a week we'll be on our way to Indonesia. we've been shopping to the city to buy gifts and souvenirs for our friends back in Indonesia. there's this store called "Something Ausie". my mother herd about it from a friend. when we got there I get the "expensive type" feeling from the store. and I'm right. as usual. but I guess the price is acceptable since all of the stuffs are ozzy made. and I did get an aboriginal painting for five dollars. I't will look good on my room. this store is perfect for someone who likes branded stuff. but for me, I always survive with cheaper model as long as it's good enough.
yesterday I had a bit of a conflict with my mother. she lectures me about how I spend my time reading manga online. lately I'm interested with "W Juliet". she said I should spend my time doing important things like reading science book or what ever and that reading that won't get me everyday. then she said something about me always do things behind her back and how she can't trust me any more. I couldn't agree with that. I feel I deserve a break after doing chores and stuff. I always try to do them properly and I only read after everything has been done. beside I'm not hiding anything from her. how can I? I have to share the same computer on the living room. and how about my sister? I used to complain to my mother on how she always act secretly and always cover her laptop screen when I come to her room and what was my mother reply? she said we should give her some space and that maybe we should let her keep a secret from us. of course she trusts my sister. even if she never does anything productive and stay in her cave most of the time. and I'm getting tired of her nagging me about my lack of interest in science. I know I used to love it. but lately I just found it plainly boring. my father seem to be more acceptable that I'm more interested in literature than my mother is. I know I'm not very persistent. hey I'm not perfect. maybe my mother is right and I shouldn't give up on a subject I used to love. but maybe I just need a break right now. I like something else and I wanted to explore this new subject. I didn't say anything to her back then. I just shuts down the computer, took down the laundry and went to my room and sleep. I feel my mother sit by my side on the bed a few moments later. but I don't feel like arguing. it never brings any good. and beside I was so tired I don't think I could wake up even if I want to. so she left me. we never brings up the matter again. I'm still in denial with her statements and I could feel that she still despise me for that incident. she keeps bringing up about that in casual conversations. she keeps suggesting what I did was wrong. and she feels that she has failed bringing me up. that I'm a failure. at least that's how I feel. she won't start the argument.I know that much. she'll wait for me to bring that up. then I'll lose as I always does. because she's always right. my eye stung even more with tears in them.
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